Sometimes I would feel as if knows im there, you know? It's like, im talking and no one is responding or even giving a shit. Even when im hyperhyper, sometimes, well, I think nobody even cares or care or even layan. It hurts being invisible. I feel as if im dead. Nobody knows or cares anymore. Forgotten. I would be really pissed at times. But what can I do? Early of the year, it was all good. Now, sigh, it's different. I don't know how to explain .. okay, I can. But I don't want to. No privacy here. I think if I get hyper, I annoy people. So right now, i'm trying to just keep quiet and let evryone talk. Cause im tired being the person who talks and no one listens. So I guess it's better to not talk and no one listens. At least that makes sense. I'm sensitive, veryvery sensitive. I get hurt easily. But I don't show it. People would think im just over dramatic or over reacting. Or just plain annoying. I miss SMKSJ cause I won't get hurt there as much as I will get hurt here. There, it's doifferent. Here, it's, sigh. I feel like crying, but I don't want to. So I prefer writing my feelings. It reminds me what ive been through. Sometimes, when I don't talk to someone, they would say im "sombong". And when I do, again, I become invisible. I talk and talk and they would end up saying "sorry what did u say?" or "huh?". It's tiring. And it hurts. Maybe I spoke at a wrong time but still. Like I do that always. It friggin hurts. I can't tell the full story to anyone (in SMKBS). Cause im scared that my friends in SMKBS dont even care, you know? Maybe they're just stuck with me. And I just never noticed that? Sigh, I don't know what to think anymore :'(

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